16 May 2014

Psycosomathic

Half yesterday and last night was quite bizarre. I know it must be my mind playing the tricks on me. Pulang dari takziah mama Uphie yang meninggal pekan lalu, setelah insiden mutar-mutar Perumnas Antang oleh supir taksi yang sotoy kata Were. Saya harus bayar 72.000, setara dengan ongkos mobil pulang kampung ke Bone kata Were lagi. Fiuuuhh... But as usual I tried to swallow my anger so much that I suffered backhead pain as I arrived home.

Efeknya badan tidak bisa bergerak. Teringat janji dengan Dwi, but Thank God rain was falling. Rencana ke Rotterdam dan sunset di Popsa akhirnya batal. Lega, soalnya saya tidak pernah bisa menolak ajakan Dwi :D

Alhasil terkapar di kasur yang selalu bikin tulang belakangku sakit. Couldn't move my body. Got trapped in Sherlock's The Reichenbach Fall, just to see Moriarty's mimic on "Honey you should see me in a crowd" and Sherlock's face as he felt being beaten by him. And of course Molly, she gave me hope.

Terbangun jam 2 malam, chat di group Dragon penuh dengan ucapan semangat buat Mbak Wuri yang sebentar lagi akan melahirkan akhir pekan ini. Aku hanya bangun minum air, put my jeans on, dan kembali tergeletak, berharap terang tidak segera datang. Thursday night, I supposed to stay late, but my body betrayed me again.

And because this is Friday, I'm making my wish, that He'll erase hatred and loathes in my heart, a chance to visit Imam Husain's shrine, to begin no matter how hurt the past is.

A strange to carry on my Lord, I will never make my way without Your Grace.



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